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Re: Farid Parhad
Posted by beezelbub (Guest) - Friday, July 15 2005, 7:38:37 (CEST)
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Maggie wrote:
>"...I agree. But it isn't enough to deny them your presence...we desperately need people like you to MAKE a presence somewhere else...somewhere where you can be appreciated...otherwise they win in the final analysis."
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>I can guarantee you that not a single one of these people you find at Assyrian conventions would appreciate me and my presence. It is always the SAME people who are in power and control of the money and the Assyrian agenda EVERY SINGLE YEAR. The more these people change the more they stay the same. Even when the old ones die, their protege's step in to take their place. It's just that every year they find a new UP AND COMING talent to use to fulfill their purposes, and once they are finished abusing them, they toss them in the toilet and flush it, several times. this way no traces of their crime can remain as evidence.

..too true...but I didn't mean at the conventions...although they're either going to have to change drastically or lose even more money and hence not be able to "love" Assyria any longer.
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>I have been in Assyria too long, not to know what goes on at these conventions. The same Jackies, the same Nimrods, the same everythig.
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>I was born in a nationalistic family, where my dad spent his ENTIRE life trying to raise Assyria from it's ashes. My parents preached Assyrianism to me while feeding me pablum. As I grew up and realized there were no REAL Assyrians left in this world, I ran as far away from it's remains as I could get. I realized I despised everything Assyrian, starting with their Christianity. I became a complete atheist, a strict Marxist.

..oh oh...the swing of the pendulum?
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>One day I picked up a Baghavad Gita and started reading it. The first page blew me away. It was a description of the battle of Kuruksatra, where Arjuna has a major dilemma facing him: To kill or not to kill, that was the question he had to contemplate. The battle field was full of lords and kings, (Arjuna's uncles) fighting against the masses which they were oppressing. Arjuna was being asked by the oppressed to kill his own uncles to save humanity. Arjuna is the warior personnification of the Hindu god, lord Krishna, and thus a great Yogic sage. As Arjuna, in his yogic trance, is meditating on what to do and trying to figure out how he could justify the murder of his own uncles, (the oppressors) Krishna appears to him.
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>Krishna asks, Arjuna, what is the problem? Why are you hesitating to kill these oppressors? Arjuna says, how can I? They are my uncles, my own flesh and blood! Krishna remarks to Arjuna, "have you no faith in the teachings of your forefathers? Arjuna looks at him baffled. Krishna goes on to say, "Never was there a time when I did not exist, nor you, nor all these kings. Nor will there ever be a time when we cease to exist."
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>This line was remarkable in itself. I thought about all the kings of the world, all the wars, all the deaths, all the mass-murders, all the suffering, all the hate, the oppression, and realized that it's true, never was there a time when these things did not exist, nor all these kings. Their faces change, but they remain the same.
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>This line led me to move into an Ashram and study Hinduism. From there I moved on to study this ism and that ism, and all the religions of the world I could think of. I was looking to not only understand myself, but what has happened to all of us, and why? I came to the conclusion that the cycle of birth and death was endless, one continuous circle. Reincarnation was inevitable, and certain things happen in life and certain people are born or are brought forth by the gods to make certain things happen. We start with Alaha Ashur, who creates his ten attributes to give life to US. When the masses have contributed to the degeneration of their own society, Baal appears, and when the masses are finished with him, Christ appears. When the masses kill him, Budha appears. When Budha can only do so much and we are not pleased, we kill him too, Mohammad appears. When Muhammad grows old and dies, the devil appears. It's one continuous cycle.
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>Do I honestly think there will be a time coming when Assyrians of today will remember who they are and where they came from?
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>I am the Doubter,
>I doubt whether I learned.
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>But once in a while, a great while, there comes along SOMEONE who reminds us of a time, a glorious time, when we were all gods, creators of great things, someone like YOU, and we kill him.

...don't bury me yet...it's to be expected that when you suggest cooking your cousins before you eat them, the community will react in shock and horror...no one is going to thank you for telling them they are fucked or, worse, SHOWING them that they are.
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>And the cycle continues............
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>Once in a while, a great while, some of us are touched by that SOMEONE, that great someone, and we begin to live again, to breathe again, to remember the truth again, to remember ourselves again. We become determined to fight again, to work again, for that great something, and then we realize there's SOMEONE, lurking in a dark corner somewhere, watching us, planning and plotting against us, and just as we begin to be great gods again, they kill us.
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>I'm beginning to be great again, but there are MANY SOMEONES, as it turns out, watching me, waiting to kill me, kill my spirit and stop me cold in my tracks, not liking what I have to say, even though I do not frequent their conventions anymore, but have found other space from which I can function, can work and speak, but they are waiting for me nevertheless, and those SOMEONES are Assyrians, no less.

...you always hate the one you love?
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>Only one thing that keeps me going, keeps feeding my dead body and revives my withered spirit, whenever I appear, whenever I speak, and that SOMEONE is the YOUNG ASSYRIAN, hoping they are out there, looking, listening, reading, watching someone like me.

...my thoughts exactly.
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>The rest of them I could careless about, they were dead to begin with.


...yes but unressurrected...I guess no one has any use for them.



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