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Re: YES, FARID, I DO BELIEVE
Posted by Maggie (Guest) - Thursday, February 23 2006, 21:08:16 (CET)
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Farid, I have no wounds to tend to. None of the things you and Tiglath do to others matter much to me. I personally don't DON'T care who you go after, even if it's me! I have nothing to hide, nothing to be ashamed of and always, always live my life according to ME, no one else. I saw through Assyrians when I was twenty, and left Chicago to never look back. I went exactly through the same things as Emil did, but Emil deals with things differently, as we all do, ( I wish I had his talent.)

I got married right out of high school to an Assyrian-Canadian, who did nothing but abuse me physically and verbally. I was too young to fight him and his entire gangster family, especially living so far away from home, which was in the suburbs of Chicago. We were married in the Mar Zia Assyrian church of the East in Chicago, and to my shock and surprise, the church did NOTHING to help me. I was on my own. After four years of abuse, I took my son and came to LA.

When I came to L.A. my ex spread all sorts of rumors about me, and all Assyrians in Chicago believed him, because they love that sort of thing. They don't like to hear how successful you are, only how low you have fallen. A few months later, he was hand-cuffed and escorted out of work, and lost his job and was publicly humiliated.

He went on to marry another Assyrian woman. As Ashur would have it, she abused him. Many people have told me that he publicly admitted at a party, "that if I was as good to Maggie, as I am to you, Maggie would have never left me". Not only did she abuse him but she would not let my son see his father or step a foot in her house. They never paid me child support, either. I could have exposed them, taken them to court, harrassed them for years, etc. but I NEVER ONCE bothered them. I wanted to give him a chance at happiness even after all he did to me and my son.

Several years later they both contracted cancer, and he died. Even at his funeral, she wouldn't let the priest from that church mention that her husband was survived by a son. Her daughters were deprived of a father at a young age, JUST THE WAY SHE DEPRIVED MY SON OF HIS FATHER. She lost both breasts to cancer, (symbolic isn't it?). And the church of the East? well you know what happened to it, don't you?

After my son graduated the high school of the arts, I was on a business trip in Chicago and took my son to see his father at his store. When the conversation came up that my son will be starting college in a few months, I asked if he could help me since he never paid me child support. He said "I can't help you, because the other day I was robbed at gun point and they stole all my money). The very next day he was robbed at gun point in his store and they stole all the money he had been hiding.

I never get mad or angry at people who do me wrong. I let God Ashur take care of them for me, because he does a much better job than I ever could think of.

So you see, Farid, not only have I licked all my wounds, years ago, but I am always vindicated by my own karma. Of course I didn't want my father's son to die. Of course I didn't want his wife to lose both breasts. Of course I didn't want to see two innocent young daughters lose their father. But it isn't in my hands who gets rewarded, who gets punished. WE ARE ALL RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR OWN ACTIONS, GOOD OR BAD.

I know what Assyrians are. Besides my parents, I have yet to meet an Assyrian who is completely honest and trustworthy. Maybe it's their immigrant experience, and they have had to scratch and sniff the gutter to make it here, whereas we didn't. We made it through honest work for honest pay. That's how my parents have their integrity intact.

If I had to do what you and Tiglath do, there'd be no way I can associate with an Assyrian for the rest of my life. They are ALL harmful to my health. But I have learned to prioritize "harmfullness" based on the degree of danger.

I cannot change people by exposing them. They only become more dangerous. I can only love them for what they are, and sometimes for what they are not, and through my being and essence, show them they don't have to do what they do in order to shine.

That's how I deal with the world, and you can't change that, hard as you try.



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