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The Spring That Never Came/To MAGGIE!
Posted by Emil (Guest) squaremoon@emilsdiary.com - Thursday, March 30 2006, 17:39:57 (CEST)
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Good morning from Chicago, and like most things maybe I should not proceed to write this, but I have been almost consumed by it for some weeks now.
Maggie, where are you?
I don't mean to sound as if I'm admonishing you, but I'm very much puzzled by your absence. I suppose I can guess the reasons for it, your disenchantment with Farid, perhaps, but I miss you, and I try not to resent you, this forum, Farid. Isn't Inside Assyria about principles and not personalities? I should like to believe this.
It's not what others say to us or do to us that makes us languish and disappear. It is what we tell ourselves.
We all have issues. God knows I thrive on anger, but if I were to pull away whenever someone did not "acknowledge" my brilliance or my diary would only be a disservice to so many others.
Not that this is your specific reason.
Look, I miss you, which means that many others do, also.
I hate getting mushy like this. It's so unbecoming. So, I put myself out there... again... in one more vulnerable way...
In fact, I am transcribing "September 1999" as we speak, with the window open, the sound of passenger jets flying into O'Hare, over Andersonville with a crescendo that thrills and scares me- a symbol of adventures and risks, like all relationships.
A part of me wants to stop this diary business altogether; it is so overwhelming, emotionally and physically. What are the benefits? I wonder. But I keep on. And I don't want to say you should keep on, also, but I can't help it.
Maggie, come back and keep on.
When you're ready.
But make it soon?
Don't be the spring that never came.



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