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Some people live in a world that possesses "good" and "evil"; a world of "here" and "over there"; of "us" and "them"; of "heaven" and "earth"; of "male" and "female"; of "black" and "white". They languish in a state of such prosaic distinctions, of comfortable discreteness; a space that is flat, familiar, yet overabundant with "if"- 'if you pray, God will hear you'- 'if you are good, good things will happen to you'- IF only life were that simple and single-dimensional. IF only God were that forgiving... Just color within the lines even as your hand trembles in pain, war, and in fear, and everything will be fine... And then there are others who sometimes intentionally, sometimes inexplicably happen to veer from this religion of disparate thinking, and find eventually that there is no such thing as reward and punishment in human relationships, in our interactions, intermarriages, and our myriad interchanges. No lightening bolts come crashing down. It does not matter who we love, but who we harm with love. I'm one of those people who happened upon this latter path, dared follow it, and discovered that the human mind, the human spirit, the human sexuality, is as colorful, and as full of possibility and mystery as the very landscape in which I continue to live. Living here is not about avoiding fear and ugliness, but it is about overcoming religious shame, choosing not to be defined by State, Church, or any other individual or institution- at least not psychologically. Here, where I live not on man's soil, but within the Garden of Universe, I am not measured and limited by my sole need to "protect" myself. My sole aim in life is not to be loved, accepted, protected, sheltered, or even liked. It is to LIVE, to be vulnerable to the sentient experience, to go wherever the experience guides me in an attempt to teach me in a deeper sense what it might mean after all to be fallible, but full of potential. Here "boy", "girl", "queer", etc. are not insults but reflections of life on earth as humans, as captured by our senses and further integrated by our actions , which continue to ripple throughout our narrative even long after we have gone. Is Farid, whom I have never met in person, "girlie", "queer", "evil"? Where I live and breathe Farid is all of these things, and more, as am I, and as are you. But are we one thing and not the other? We are not "above" anything and anyone, but "within" the experience- all of us... whether we like it or not... --------------------- |
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