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...you can always tell how slippery a guy`s hold on his own dick is by his reaction to freedom...in this case the freedom to be whatever kind of sexy you wanna be. There`s no point telling this type that some of the most valiant, tender, brilliant and downright mean people in the world have been Queer...even Jesus Christ is suspected of blowing a disciple or two...but never mind. The Queer movement is going to help liberate all of us...it`s going to force us to break the stranglehold that fucking yahwe has had on us since he first emerged from a shit heap in the desert and began hounding people to death...and of course and right on cue, here comes GM, the asshole formerly known as GS, to spill his shoddy soul...this was just TOO much for him...so you can see how powerful being Queer is...either Hanna scolds him again or we know what Hanna does in the dark.

My sincerest apology…I have been insensitive on such a sensitive issue Fre

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Written by GS on 27 Jan 2006 03:58:15:

I am going to break my promise to Hanna but one last time.

...good of you to begin with a lie...it reminds us of what you do best...carry on...

Sometimes people say “GS…you are so mean and cruel by some of the stuff you say…you have no sensitivity with regards to people’s feelings…” That is not true! I do have feelings…I feel pain…I feel joy etc.

...I`ve never said that...who has? I`ve said you`re a shallow, stupid, lying shmuck...and you`re going to prove me right again. Who gives a shit if you "feel" or not?

Sometimes I just have to take one step back and really look at the big picture.

...in your case take ten miles back...you`ve had your nose pressed against the asshole of life so long you think it`s a "heavenly" wind that`s been washing over you all these years.

I never challenged anyone on this forums or other to meet face to face for a confrontation…I never backed out of one either,

...you had to toss that in..of course you backed off stupid...maybe at your forum people are built the wy you are, but we remember...I told you I was driving through LA..I asked you toll me where we could meet...silence...and then, later, you said you had "too much respect for old people" to meet...respect for old people whose mother you call a whore..that kind of asshole.

but that’s not the point. It’s not always about me. Sometimes you just have to listen the other person’s crying out in pain. Fred “Freddy" Parhad was doing just that.

...teehee.

I remember back in 1995 I took a job on a dare.

...your Food Stamp worker finally had enough?

I got a job in the armor truck business.

...with an armored head you be a natural fit.

I guess I liked the idea of being able to carry a gun and I don’t know I thought it would be fun. They had to do extensive background checks. Lie detector test and drug tests. I passed I got the job.

...so could any illiterate half-wit who`d spent his life in church being fondled by a representative of the Lord.

I actually hated it and I left a after two months. I was assigned with this white boy who came from Modesto or something. Real cool guy…sometimes I drove and he guarded and sometimes it was the other way around.

...this is getting hot...two Christian guys, one with white silky thighs the other with chocolate inner thighs... with guns in an armored car...their feelings for each other also "armored"..their "pistols" loaded and ready to go off at any curve in the road...

This guy was so cool he started to challenge me on how many chicks numbers we can pick up on a route which ran for about 8 to 10 hours a day.

...closeted types are always trying to prove they can "score"...they figure the more mindless fucks they rack up the more they`ve proven they`real men".

At the end of the week he would have ten numbers and I would barely have two. He was very competitive and aggressive. He killed it!

...your dick? Your hopes? What died?

Later I was starting to hear a rumor circulating at work that he was gay.

...here it comes...this is the same as all the other accusation GM levels at liberals whatever...whatever HE has done...he blames on the other guy, the "bad" guy. This fellow simply can`t take responsibility for what he does...it`s always the OTHER guy who is secretly Hillary, or Queer.

I said “no way…this guy is a playa” They crew said trust us he’s gay and he likes you. I said “what do you want me to do…I said jokingly the guy carries a gun and I carry a gun… I don’t want trouble”

...oooooh...you`re SO hot!

It turned out that he tried to impress me by competing with me on how many girls numbers he can get. He thought I would like him more. It was his way of reaching out to me thinking I would like him as a person and then some.

...I`ll leave it to any sane person who has NOT had a priest stick his finger up his arse to figure out who was trying to impress whom..and who has been TRYING to impress yoors trooli...and been desperate for a phone call! And PLEASE come see me...teehee.

It’s the same thing with Freddy. He tried to reach out to by impressing me by being this tuff cowboy (I will get to that later) and challenging me to a confrontation all in awhile he just wanted to see if we actually meet without a confrontation. He has a crush on me. That is his defense mechanism. When I actually took him up on the offer it threw a loop in his plan but he had to continue to play his tuff guy role

...hee hee.

I ran into something Freddy had said that made me think.

..another lie...you don`t think...none of you do....you think UP.

He posted a few things something about his groins stopping short of referring to a physical things…I know he thought of me and his groin in thoughts and posted a few. I thought it was a stupid joke than I started to read this referring to the movie Broke Back Mountain. Here is an excerpt

...oh brother...this fellow is in SUCH denial!

Jeff wrote:

>I know that Emil hasn't seen it...but I have.
>
>It is indeed a love story, but so much more.
>
>Two men find that first internalizing their love for each other in their circumstances (the time and place, the south during the 50s simply didn't allow it) is impossible, and then decades later when they finally start to overcome their denial, they are still not able to be together.
>
>It is truly a depressing story. I thought about it on several occasions after watching it... very very sad, but excellent at the same time.

Freddy wrote

”..it takes a REAL man to be open and free about his sexuality.”

This is not a love story but a lust story.

..and you should know...you, out riding around collecting "girl`s numbers"...a man who understands "love".

That’s when it hit me. Freddy pushes everybody away because he is suffering like all gay men do…

...you closeted Queers are the ones who suffer...Emil USED to suffer...you`re the same people who tsk tsk that the child of a black man and white woman will "suffer, poor dear"...yes, because people like you will make SURE the child suffers. Queers will suffer no more and no less than non-Queers the day closted types like YOU stop tormenting THEM because you are in torment.

He used talk about Shushan’s anatomy in cruel ways…being mean to the girls but always gave Donny and Emil and the rest of the boys a pass. Maggie...she makes a gay guys best friend so he gave her a pass. It all started to add up. Freddy Parhad is gay and I really don’t care!

...of course you don`t. YOU`RE the closested one and DO care...with eveything else I`ve been open about I`d hardly stop at addmitting I`m Queer...doofus.

I don’t think one is born gay, but I believe he can become gay through childhood behavior.

...that`s your fear...of course people are born Queer...have been since the beginning...but it`s YOUR behavior and the circumstances they live under through childhood which determine how comfortable they can be about it..if you were born on a planet where it was normal and universal to be Queer and YOU were the odd hetero..you`d SUFFER...what trouibles you is that you ENJOYED, as a child, what you feel you must repress as an adult and feel guilt for that "wrong" enjoyment...me, I don`t think in terms of wrong or right..if I was Queer I could care less what you or god says, like Emil..I`d be IN YOUR FACE anyway. It is YOU who fear god and displeasing him...I could give a shit about god, especially your`s. I`ve broken every commandment in Assria...I hardly credit you, or your god, enough to care what YOU think...but you DO...YOU are the worried one...

...I`ve done nothing but spurn and smack and use you..and you`ve done nothing but run after me and ask for MORE. You avoided meeting..or had to bring your male "friend" because you`re afraid of your attraction for me..an attraction your own homosexual desire has forced you to deny and trun instead into this tuff cowboy thing you have...you need to prove YOUR manhood to me, so I`ll not think you`re in love with me. I never had to meet you for the reasons you suppsoe but to look you in the eye and ask you to repeat what you said about my mother...just that....but you can`t even handle being CLOSE to me..as in writing on the same forum...so terrified ar you that your feelings will overwhelm you..and true to your "political" style, you accuse the OTHER person, the one who arouses you, of being guilty of the GUILTY feelings YOU have!

One of my best friends which happen to be a Lebanese Maronite is gay with AIDS. He caught his mom making "love" to another woman when he was young. In Freddy’s case maybe he didn’t have that father figure male in his life or he really had a traumatic experience with sexual abuse etc… a real dysfunctional up bringing. I am not a therapist and maybe he is seeking help who knows.

...oddly enough, you`d think I`d be a homophobe because of the rampant male on male bonding and pre-sex that goes on in Muslim schools that are segregated along sexual lines...I certainly had my fair share of encounters...but I always fought..I knew instinctively that forced sexual attention has nothing to do with sex..but is a way to humiliate and force submission of the most humiliating kind..rape, for instance, is NOT about sex..it`s about power.

...this poor fellow is pouring out his own trauma...he needs to get it off his chest and has NEVER found the way to do it, till I came along. It`s okay...I get this all the time from men and women...several Queer friends of mine tried to seduce me, it`s flattering...and I have to admit they made a good case...but I don`t like men enough to feel that way...besides I`ve always been intrigued by the otherness of woman..a man, to me, is too close to me, to close to masturbating...why bother?

..as to your reasons for your difficulties, my advice is to let yourself go...unlock your asshole and put something else in there besides a poker.

...if you look back at the exchanges we`ve had, especially at the fact that you`re too afraid of your feelings to come over and TALK...and how infrequently you`ve had anything to say about politics OR being "Assyrian"..and that in these last few weeks you`ve degenerated into a caricature of a man desperately seeking SOME contact, but one he can still control...you`ll realize that in a round about way I`ve helped you at least grasp the doorknob to your closet...it`s a start.

..by the way...are you SURE it was a "friend" who caught his mom with another woman? Now why else would you think of "whore" when you think of mother..and the mother of the man you have these feelings for? Must the mother of "that kind of man" be a whore? Is SHE to be blamed for "infecting" her son...?

Freddy I just want to say I do apologize and I did not mean to be insensitive to your sexual preference and your feelings.

...tee hee.

I am not really a homophobe. I am a lesbian trapped inside a man’s body so that sort of makes us both gay but in different ways:)

...you are the WORST sort of homophobe...you delight in presenting yourself as a REAL MAN..when all the time you`re REAL AFRAID of being who you are. You`re in denial...but you`ve begun...you`ve turned your love feelings for me into hate feelings as well...hoping the one will cancel out the other...but it`s got you too strong...you defy Hanna...you turn his forum into a Dear Abby column instead...you`ve been obsessing about me for months...I`ve had an obsession with you too...because you are a PERFECT example, in one bundle, of all that is wrong with those of you who insist being Christians makes you the BEST sort of Assyrian there can be...and it`s interesting that your sexuality turns out to be just one MORE lie!

WHERE HAVE ALL THE COWBOYS GONE…Jon Wayne…Ronal Reagan…George W. Bush…those are real cowboys…

...see this? They were ACTORS...not the real thing..and that`s what GM, the asshole formerly known as GS, is...he ACTS. And he has the hots, hots he NEVER expected to come to the surface, for the ONE Assyrian he`s found who is NOT acting.

It`s okay...I understand...you`re not the first man who`s discovered his feelings because of me...I take it in stride.

Now...what about Hillary and Whitewater?

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